Friday, December 7, 2007

A Blogger's Disappearance

Well the Bad Dentist came back and put this blogger under the weather for the last few days. Good news is 3 of my teeth have been fixed. Better news is that I couldn't eat for a couple of days and my jeans are fitting good today! Bad news is that I have to go back and see the mean man at the end of this month for more work.

I got the job at the hospital! I start training next week ----- on my day off my from my Chicago job. Basically, starting on Monday, I will be working 7 days straight until my final day in Chicago (January 8th). It's going to be so exhausting, but the money will be good to throw into savings.

Wednesday, while I was screaming in pain from the dentist, I went and had my drug test done as well as my first hepatitis shot series, and my Rubella shot, and I have no idea what else I was shot up for. All I remember is they took blood - lots of blood.

As I left, I took a moment to look around at my surroundings. I've passed St. Anthony 1,000 or more times since I've lived in NW Indiana. Never in my life would I think I was going to be an employee there - ever. But, as I clutched my new employee parking pass, I trudged through the snow to my car. My last visit in the visitor section. It was surreal. A new beginning is upon me.

I'm getting scared. I am calm about school. I really am. I'm on the Dean's list so I am guessing I should be able to handle the classes fine. Financially, I am stressing to no end. Tiger and I are very used to my income downtown. As I cried the other day thinking, "How will I pay for groceries?" He keeps telling me that we'll be fine. The mother, the stresser, the pessimest in me just isn't so sure. Have I made the right decision? Isn't the point of getting an education supposed to be fruitful in the end and someday my worries will subside? Ugh. I just wish I could shake the helpless and unsure feeling.


my wonderful men... said...

Glad you posted I was wondering about you.
I'm glad you got the job at St. Ant's. I've worked for them a few times in my life.

Hey do you have an email address? I can answer the question about the church you asked about on my blog. I don't like to give location on my blog.
you can email me at

Ann(ie) said...

You can do this, girlie. You've come this far and you're just starting a new journey and it will pay off in the end. It'll all come together, it's your new normal. I think mama's always stress, but that just means we're always on our toes, too. xo. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! And Dean's list????....right ON! See. You can do anything!

Anonymous said...

Change is always scarey. But, I know you'll do fine. You are a survivor!


Mimi's Toes said...

Congrats! I knew you would get that job. Don't be afraid, sounds like things are falling into place for you and your family. God is in control and has a plan. This is a scripture that I stand by: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.

Tiffany said...

Congrats on the job! Change is so scary (esp when you think those mom thoughts) But you seem like you can handle it! :)

chrissy said...

This is the point where you need to grab on to what you have dreamed of and put it into reality into your brain! Make it real, enjoy it and know that everything will, will absolutely work out! You have come so far keep on keepin on! You are an amazing woman! Please tell yourself what an amazing woman you are and believe it!!!

chrissy said...

OH yea, make sure you make it back to the Dentist, you don't want that to start hurting at the wrong time!