Where do I even begin? Did I even begin to think about the psychological aspect of letting my daughter see "the other family." Since Sunday, she hasn't been the same.
Sunday she slept most of the day. Anyone with an active 6 year old knows this is not normal. No she's not sick. There's no fever, nothing. But she slept most of the day.
Last night, she just laid on the couch. No Barbies, no fun stories, no begging me to put on dress up clothes.......nothing. The Tiger and I kept saying all night, "what is wrong wtih her?" Where's my happy little girl?
Then bedtime comes. My worst nightmare ever. Something that has haunted me, something I knew would happen sooner or later...........I laid in bed with her and asked what was wrong.
Her answer? "Why doesn't my daddy love me?" BAM! And I am supposed to answer this at bedtime? Wow. So that's what's been wrong. I think I laid in bed with her for hours after that crying with her, crying for her, calming her down, doing the best I can to show her that the Tiger and I love her SO MUCH......but it's not the same is it? My little girl feels abandoned.
During all this we went through some pictures (I have pictures of her and her dad, me and her dad, etc that I was saving when for when she was older).......no time like the present right? It made her feel good to look at them.
But here is one of my all time favorites from when she was a baby (about a year and a half). Here was a time when she was so young and innocent, didn't know the hell that was going on in her house. This picture makes me cry and laugh all in the same moment..........